We finally met with the Epileptologist, and we were able to ask her a lot of questions. One question I had was, "Would John have to be on his medications for life, or would he be able to get off of them in a few years, if all goes well?"she said,"The meds are something he will have to take for the rest of his life." For some reason this made me sad. Don't get me wrong, I am so relieved/ happy we have medicine that's working. But, sometimes I just wish this could be over. And I guess the pills are just a reminder that its not. Currently there is no cure for Epilepsy. The pills are not a cure just a controller.
Last, Saturday we ran the Purple day 5k for Epilepsy.. I started training a few months ago when a friends told me about the race, and I wanted to get at least under 26mins, and I did (25:52)! While I was running I couldn't help but get emotional thinking about everything we/John have gone through in the last 2 years. A year ago this month John was officially diagnosed with Epilepsy. Its hard to look back and think of everything he had to go through on a daily basis, but I am so happy he is doing so well. The last two years have been such a struggle for me, but it feels good to be able to finally really relax, and enjoy life without those damn seizures. (sorry for the cuss word, but that's how I feel)
John is currently in a Surgery rotation, and next month he starts an OBGYN rotation. He only has 7 months left, and he will be done with school! I am pretty proud of him and myself, for getting through everything.
Here's a little quote I found on pinterest:
"It isn’t as bad as you sometimes think it is. It all works out. Don’t worry. I say that to
myself every morning. It will all work out. If you do your best, it will all work out. Put
your trust in God, and move forward with faith and confidence in the future. The Lord
will not forsake us. He will not forsake us. … If we will put our trust in Him, if we will
pray to Him, if we will live worthy of His blessings, He will hear our prayers." - Gordon
B. Hinckley
